So as you might notice the schedule is pretty full these days and it isn't showing out till December yet, but will soon as we are always a work in progress. Its too late for me to be up tonight after a three day healing, but as many of you know I get sick (willingly) after I work on a body.
There are many kinds of States to me at the moment. States of bliss and gratitude for the life I live. States where I might be found according to the schedule! States of excitement for future endeavors. States of sadness for the loss of Brett a year ago the 12th. And states of frustration with what I do for a living as well.
I find myself vacillating between all these states and feeling vulnerable and open. Its a tricky thing. I know I must remain completely vulnerable to grow but find resistance to vulnerability when I see how convoluted our world can sometimes seem.
During Satsangs I usually talk about being more open and not guarding yourself too much because I believe true empowerment comes from the state of vulnerability. I also see a lot of beings that are taken advantage of, my self included, because of this openness. So which is a bigger dilemma? That takes a lot of discernment and discretion...huh!? So here is my thought for tonight. Try it both ways! See if vulnerability leads you to more insanity or perhaps see if it leads to more inner-sanity?
In my life I have been demonized and idiolized to large degrees. Neither of those things feels correct to me. What does feel correct and right is being open to fallibity and taking responsibility for your actions. It also feels right to tell those around you that you are fallible and do take responsibility as a human being. Ah...but then we have the kunundrum of being taken advantage of...What to do? I have done both, or should say let both happen. I have admitted fallibility as a human being and taken person responsibility, and I have also been taken advantage of in big ways by many people. What have I learned?
I have learned that it does not really matter what any outcome is in life as long as you walk in the line of the higher benevolent source and keep your ears perked up and listen to the sound of the soft whisper of God's breathe. If you stay vunerable probably both things will happen to you and you will probably react in many different ways to the outcomes. But, I feel, If you can stay steady in a place of love, hold your ground or space with well intentioned acts, and discern just how far you will allow the process to unfold, you will ascend into states of consciousness that you can not even imagine.
I get happy...move on...I get sad....move on...I love....move on....I lose and move on, but with the knowing that if I stay grounded, and this is a paradox, in the depthlessness of the source, the being that I am will thrive. It will thrive endlessly!  That all said, I will still tell a person no, and occasionally judge, try and guard myself and those I love dearly, and get mad that the mirror fogs after a hot shower. However, there is the voice, a calling. and I trust always that it will beckon me home.
I love you all,
Jeff Baker

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